Les Miserable = Less Miserable?

Perhaps it’s the Les Miserables soundtrack I’ve been listening to on my MP3 player these days, but I’ve been feeling rather melancholic recently. Last night was a good example. Something like that would never have happened if I had been in higher spirits.

And yes, the low spirits have been getting to me. Just yesterday, I only realised I forgot to wear my watch out when I was already at the bus stop. Believe it or not, this is the FIRST time something like that has ever happened. This morning, while making that extra effort to remember my watch, I forgot my coin pouch!

Forgive me for being anal, but even the smallest things put me off now. Like my pen running dry in the middle of BS class last night. Like the bus taking forever to come. Like not finding a seat on the train in the morning. Like feeling put off by the smallest things.

Of course it doesn’t help that I feel sidelined these days. Yes, it’s a transitional period, but surely I can do more than just attend? Oh, you can help build the atmosphere… It’s still important you know? I know, and maybe I’ve just been over-anxious to get into the thick of things and need to learn more patience?

Maybe it’s a guy thing, but I don’t feel particularly welcomed there. No, the members are fine… but I do feel like an intruder at times, like a man at his friend’s family dinner.

Is there something you want me to learn, Lord?